The Rediscovery of Blogging

So I haven't blogged in a few years and there is a that gritting, guilty feeling gnawing in me, telling my fingers to get to typing. So here it is.

The present situation -
Here I am, not having to work a day in my life because I love my job. It isn't work if you are having fun, right?

I am a full time musician now. Gigging around at least 3 - 5 times a week. It's a pretty sweet life. I get to create music, play music and make people happy.

And with that, I have taken on a new endeavor of being a *gasp* Booking Agent! I get to call musicians and schedule them to play at venues and stuff!

Dating-
Podge and I have been together for a few years now. We are happy as can be. Like any relationships, things go up and down and down and out, but we manage.

Crafting-
Still crafting, mostly just crocheting blankets for expecting friends. It's still fun, my yarn stash is as big as it can get. NO MORE buying yarn for a few years for me, taking in the intensity of my crochet and knitting schedule (not that intense).

Kitchen Life-
Bread. I've learned how to make my own bread. It is delightful! I've never found a much more interesting hobby.

All in all, I am in a great place in my life right now. No more drama from so-called "friends" that I had in the past.

I've learned that the best response to bullshit is just to stay away from it, ignore it and don't be affected by it because in the end, nobody would give a shit about you, but yourself. And do you really want to look back at your life and all you did was respond and deal with BS? I know I don't! So yeah.

Halloween you're-doing-it-right list

I've never really celebrated Halloween because it was not that popular in the Philippines when I was growing up. However, instead of trick-or-treaters,back home, there were kids going from one house to the other around the block singing a particular song, sort of like Christmas Caroling. They would come in groups. Usually around 4-6 kids per group and they start singing "Narito na kami sa inyong harapan, taga rito lamang..." . After the song, you give them money. So I guess that is what Halloween is for us. The next day Todos Los Santos is celebrated. We go to the cemetery to light candles for our dearly departed. Then we celebrate. I distinctly remember forming wax balls from the candles that were melted. Whoever had the biggest ball, had the biggest ego.

Halloween is fun though. Here are the things that I'd like to do if I had the time to make them. You can click on the caption to see the DIYs and Details

Spooky Eyeball Wreath

Mummy, Bats and the Moon

Spider Lamp Shade (really cute)

Halloween Lanterns (Perfect for the Deck)

Wood Block Mummies! TOO CUTE!

Pumpkins! LOL! This one is genius!

Glitter

More Glitter + Color

Party Favor Idea, maybe...

Candy Corn Earrings

Ruby Slippers/High Heels

Little Red Riding Hood 

 <<<MUNCHIES>>>

Creepy Coconut Kiwi Panna Cotta

Sparkly Spider Cookies

Cheese Pops

Sugar Ghost Cupcakes

Marshmallow Witches

Mummy Cookie Pops

Spooky Sweets

Letting go and Living free Rant

No, I am not stressed out.


Sure, school is a bit hectic. I have a million articles to critique, a book to review, a movie to review, and few chapter quizzes and not to mention, midterms.


Sure, work can be exhausting despite the fact that I only put in 20 hours every week (Don't judge me! heehee). Not to mention that I have an evil co-worker who is out to get me, I think. On top of that, I am expecting the overlord of the software that I use on a daily basis to come and “TRAIN” me to catalog… wait for it… MONOGRAPHS AND BOOKS. Exciting but scary.


Sure, I have an upcoming project that piloted last Friday at the Dog House Pub called Flipswitch. Surprisingly we got good reviews despite the fact that we only practiced twice before the gig. And we’re going to get better, I promise. Finally, MY own band. The selection of songs will be entirely up to me. I love me some Turbidity but this is different. This is MY band. KEYWORD=MINE


I’ll admit to being tired all the time. Podge and I hardly ever go out anymore. We just stay at home and play Infamous 2, which by the way is freaking awesome. On top of that, there is a humongous pile of laundry, no gas for the stove, and all kinds of crazy shit. People not liking my music and feeling guilty about blah blah blah.


But no, these things don’t bother me anymore. I’ve been enjoying myself a lot lately. I don’t know why, probably because I’ve cast out all evils aside. I got rid of people who constantly conjure up drama. Although, what I think did it for me was the fact that I do not care what other people think of me anymore. For a while, I was so consumed by making people like me that my whole entire existence revolved around it. I wanted be everyone’s best friend. I wanted people to see what a good girl I was. However, something happened along the way. I learned that I will never be able to please everyone. There will always be people who dislike me, think I’m an idiot or just plain envious of what I have. I’ve learned that there is no point arguing with people who cannot and refuse to see my point of view. I’ve spent countless hours crying when I found out that the person I love the most (at that time) hated me for having the things I have, hated me for being happier, made me an object of envy and resented me for being myself. It was painful. I lost people along the way.


But if that is what it takes for me to grow as a human being, then so be it. My life is far too short to be burdened with such things.


It took me a long time and a lot of courage to admit this to myself. So for the sake of closure and moving forward, I leave you with this. If I had hurt you in the past, if I had done you wrong, please forgive me. I am a better person now and would like to start over with you if you are ever so willing to do the same. For those who hurt me and done me wrong, you know who you are, I am finally letting you go, please don’t think of me ever again. I would like to be removed from you and the hell you put me through, and the hell that it is when you’re around.

To end this, I’ve posted a picture of me smiling a real smile.

And a song that I’ve been listening to for years but had only related to lately.

Slow Pony Home 

It's the second September I have known you

Four years or so ago, I rode a pony, called him "Truth"

We didn`t know the way so it took us till today to get here

And all that time, I felt just fine

I held so many people in my suitcase heart

That I had to let the whole thing go

It was taken by the wind and snow

And I still didn't know that I was waiting

For a girl on a slow pony home

I can remember when I first saw you

You said in my photograph I looked more far away

I laughed and smiled and didn't say "I am a bit afraid to be here."

Setting free the anchor and looking past the shore

It's a sea of horses on ships with no sails, no motors, no oars

Now we're cleaning the windows between us two

Funny, you do it once, and then again, and pretty soon

The fingerprints and dust...

But I've begun to trust the view here.

Ear Worm

Paris Ooh La La 

I cannot seem to stop listening to Grace Potter and the Nocturnals lately. She may be the best Rock music singer out there! 

A Perfect Day!

Dear Reader,

Today has been the most awesome day in a long time.

It started with waking up slow and expecting it to be the worst day ever. Really, any day that starts with going to the DMV is bound to be "doomsday". However, it turned out ok. Hell, it turned out great! We were in and out of there in 20 minutes, 30 tops. So that was great! Then Podge and I decided to take the day off. I ditched school. I thought to myself that I won't be missing much this far along in the semester. Derr!

So, we went to the local Deli and Coffee Shop and had a wonderful late breakfast. Coffee is the answer to everything.

After that, its off to UVI to pick up the paycheck but we decided to check out the music department first and I got to play for Podge for the first time. It was refreshing to play the piano for someone who loves and appreciates you. Awesome!

Then we ran some more errands.

By the way, we got some fresh Star Fruit, Avocados and Guava from my parent's backyard. I'm quite excited about that!

Then we decided to run home and got ready for the beach. Before that however, we decided to get some SUSHI from Enkai. I badly needed a day off. We've been soooo busy. Our social and work calendar has been full for a couple of months now and we rarely have the chance to make it down to the nearest beach.

Just when I thought it could not get any better, we decided to call our new musician friend and asked him if he wanted to jam with us. And he did! And it was awesome! This is exciting! Today was the bomb diggity!

Now home, blogging... Soooooooooo...

What was your day like?

Keeping Busy

Dear Reader,

As you may have noticed, I've neglected this blog for weeks and weeks.

REASON NO.1: The Fall Semester is here and I am taking 4, yes, four classes this semester. If I'm not eating, bathing, working, blogging, I'm probably reading. And speaking of reading, I just bought a new Kindle and it is awesome. I still love my paperback and hardcover books but I have to say, the Kindle is slowly growing on me. As a matter of fact, two of my textbooks are on my device. And that keeps me occupied most of the time. It's not too bad this far along in the semester but things could get pretty heavy and I would like to stay on top of things.

Enjoy a picture of me on top (sort of ) of a thing (Rock)

REASON NO. 2: The longer I work here in ECC, the more I find things that needs to be fixed. I just discovered a few shelves of undocumented serials that needs to be added to the online catalog. And don't even get me started with the monographs.

REASON NO. 3: There's a new and exciting software that Podge and I are trying to get up and running. These guys donated this software to Seven Minus Seven. We are yet to mess with it. Soon we will able to provided recording and mixing services to local musicians. EVERYONE IS WELCOME! 

REASON NO. 4: There is also a (sort of) secret project that would launch soon! So watch out for that! 

I guess what I am trying to say is that, I've been keeping busy and staying out of trouble but that doesn't mean I am not thinking about you.

How have you been and what are you up to?

On the "Good Life"

As you may have/not noticed, I have been very busy/lazy lately.

There's my job at the University. The Music. The Boy. Friends. etc.

Right now is probably the busiest I've ever been and I am loving every bit of it.

Anyway...

I've been so blessed to have such a beautiful life. I'm TRULY happy that I have these things to keep me busy...

A couple of days ago, The boy and I got invited to go to HAPPY ISLAND (CAS CAY) with a bunch of friends. They were nice enough to take us on their boats (such good friends we have) I went with Lauren and Luc on their "Bro" Boat (yes, they agree, I'm not making fun of them). We met up at Krum Bay and travelled from there to Happy Island.

The boat ride was TREMENDOUSLY shaky and terrifying. I had the TIME OF MY LIFE! I was doing all kinds of things like pretending to ride the "Mechanical Bull" holding a handle with my right hand while the left is up in the air. I kept trying to touch the water. I kept looking for dolphins and was expecting to see a whale or a shark to launch itself from the water and jump 5 feet above our heads Free-Willy Style. I waved at the Westin Boat and they waved back! It was so much fun. And when we got to Happy Island, our friends kept telling us how funny we looked on that boat leaping a foot from the surface off of the water. It was VERY VERY Wavy. Nonetheless, we had so much fun that day.

That very same weekend, the boy got me two pairs of sunglasses and two purses for the total amount of 14 dollars. Yes, I am lucky and No, I don't care if it is cheap! But that was not the most exciting part, we got CHIVES the length of our kitchen counter at the Farmer's Market. Also, I got the chance to have so much fun with chalk, yes, chalk!

Here's a picture

I also got to play music!!! YAY!

So my point is... I have a good life and I am thankful for it.

I am not trying to brag about how great and awesome my life is. It is quite plain, it is only indicative that I am satisfied with where I am and I don't need anything else.

It's funny, how I want nothing but the company of the people I love and care about.